Seriously I dont even know what to do anymore. I just need to vent right now.
First off, how do you even tell when a guy likes you? How do you know hes not saying all the cute stuff just to get you into bed? Everyone lies now just to get what they want. Im soo sick of being used. Im sick of falling for someone who isnt falling for me ; who just wants sex. I feel like Im never going to find a nice guy. I feel like they dont exist.
Second thing, why cant people just fucking be honest??? My ex still lies to me and I dont know why. I dont have the same feelings like I used to, Im just friends with him, which I must say is the most amazing feeling ever, but were friends. And he still lies to me. I dont care that hes dating a bitch, it doesnt bother me. As long as hes happy. But he still has to lie to me about it. He cant hangout with me because hes always with her. Im home from school maybe once a month and I dont fucking get to see him. I hate getting tossed aside. I just wanna be how we were. When he was there for me. But he fucking cant be because of his girlfriend. I feel like Im wasting my time, once again with another person.
Third thing, how the fuck are you best friends with someone for almost 3 years and then just stop talking to them?? I was best friends with a kid, we talked to each other about everything, he was there for me through the roughest time of my life. The day he graduated (a year and a half ago) he stopped talking to me. Hasnt talked since. Ive tried talking to him and Ive gotten nothing. Its killing me. I miss him. I miss being there for him and having him there for me. I hate how people can just let someone who meant a lot to them go so easily. But even more, I hate that I cant let people go who have clearly let me go /:
Thats all. I just needed to get that all out there.
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