April 8, 2011
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Ventingg
Ive been stressing out soo much lately.
Schools been sooo busy, and the sad thing is, Im not even stressing about school. Im doing fine with it even though all I do is homework.
Im stressing because Im trying to move on from my ex...the kid that Ive been in love with for over 5 years. The other day I decided that I would write up a list of reasons why I never wanna get back together with him and move on. I told myself that I will read it to myself everyday. Its helping. Im glad Im doing it. Also, I wrote a note to him. Ill never give it to him, but its just me saying that Im walking away. Were still going to be friends cause I can never have him out of my life, but theres no more thoughts about the future and him and I. We've been through a lot and we've had a lot of rough times, but hes one of my good friends. Im stressing though because Ive always gone to him about my problems and he would make me feel better...but now I cant. Even though we still talk, I just dont vent to him anymore. I dont know why. Its not helping my stress at all.
The other reason that Im stressed right now is because I hate people who use my things without asking. I hate when people go through my things without asking. Ive been dealing with this my whole school year and I havent said a thing. I cant do it. I cant confront people and now...its tearing me up inside. Im bothered by it all the time. Theres other things that have been bothering me too about the whole situation and its all just adding up and up and up. I realized that I need to talk to my roommate and Im so scared. We only have a month left but blah. I gotta do this before I lose my insanity. ): Which might be a bit too late.
In my class the other day, after I wrote my note to my ex and all the reasons we should never be together again, I decided I would write some quotes. So here they are (: dont judge
or steal them please!1. Im ready for the truth,
Im sick of all the lies.
You've had so many chances,
so here comes the last goodbye.
2. Everyday Im going to remind myself why I need to walk away and let go
Everday Im going to tell myself the reasons that I shouldnt want him
Everday Im going to hope for the strength to never look back
Everday Im going to be my own here and save myself
3. I may be strong but Im starting to crack
K thats all (: and Im done venting too. So thanks to you who actually read this <3
Comments (5)
I'm sorry hun <3 I know you've been super stressed and frustrated lately! I'm the same way, I hate confronting people /: On a good noteeee: 7 days and Alycia and I will be there to save your sanityyy! <3 Love you! And I'm always here, youu know that
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Confronting is the worst ): I couldnt even do it earlier today like I was going to ): I CANT WAIT FOR YOU GUYS TO COME UP <3 and save me (: haha I miss you guys!! I love you <3 and Im thankful for you and for always being there for me <3 and Im always here for you <3
Yeahh, and it's hard because she's not the nicest person in the world! I can't wait either! I'm so excited! I miss you too <3 Awww, I'm so glad we have each other! Ha, it's too bad we never became friends sooner, like in high school! I guess that's one good thing that came out of Rob and I dating :p
thanks for the comment! we had a great time tonight !
im sorry your so stressed! getting over ex's can be hard ! but it sounds like you are headed in the right direction
it also definitely sounds like you need to talk to your roommate!
nice quotes
Thanks hun! The quote kinda fits how things were with my ex haha.
I haven't seen Due Date yet but I want to soo bad!
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